Whew!!!!!

Still rushing!!.....I cant understand why do other people make your problems their problems and start getting all worked up if something doesnt work out as per schedule....I mean ...its really annoying....REALLLLYY!!. Im already not very relaxed....but why do ppl have to add to it with their constant bickering! To top it all...you cant even blow your top on them or ask them ta "SHUUUUTTT UPPPP!!!!" because they are highly...HIGHLY....sentimental. One wrong step can wreck everything. How can just one person keep saying watever he/she wants to and assume that the other person will actually not react because the basic intention is good?

It really sucks when you are required to be in a deferential position on account of the nature of the relationship u share with a person.... i.e when the person happens to be older to you and you cannot simply afford to act nonchalant!

I hate it when people try to forcibly involve themselves in everything connected to me.....I hate being indulged in too much.There are other, more constructive ways of showing concern.... like NOT BICKERING....do they expect me to pacify them simply because they are disturbed on account of my work not being completed? I want all these people to know that I dont need help with my work...if I do I shall ask for it. And whether or not my work is completed I alone shall assume the consequences.... Please do not try to taunt me with the "I -told -you -so" crap....its only gonna make me think that you really have no concern for me and all you wanna do is score a brownie point or win a self created argument. I dont react to all the nonsensical hysterics simply because of three reasons:

a) I always try to consider the intention(whether or not it really exists)
b) I respect the strong sentiments of overly sentimental people.
c) I dont want to end up wrecking my work because of foolishly reacting to foolish hysterics.

But Im running outta patience. And the worst part is when you do make a slightly sarcastic remark to slightly give vent(just to make them realise) to the enormous pressure building up inside of you, it causes these overly sentimental people to start wallowing in self pity!!!! How sickly! Oh how I do hate the "You-just-dont-care" nonsense!! I mean ....prolly.... YOU are being very uncaring and unfeeling when you say that I (of all people) dont care for somebody who gave their life to me! Is it just your sentiments that are important? Do my sentiments matter nothing to you?
They prolly dont.... and thats why Ive learnt to ignore my sentiments while trying to protect urs. Thats why Im this "indifferent , unfeeling" creature that you think I am....because if I were to start being sentimental then all hell would break loose....not because of me ...but because you would react to even the perfectly justified statements I make! And being indifferent to your hysterics is certainly easier than pacifying you after my "totally unjustified reactions". You might not be concerned about the larger picture....but I bloody well am... and understand that since all you're bothered about is your sentiments, ultimately I have to keep quiet for the common good! It sucks ...it really does....saps me emotionally... but I hafta end up being the "accused" all the time simply because I know that venting what I really feel will cause further havoc. It doesnt really matter outside of the circle of people you care for. But within the circle ....well they're all I have!!

Im so happy there is something called Blogspot....cant think of telling nebody else!

Neway ....I gtg now....too much wrk... Im highly irritated right now....with all of these people who just care about their own sentiments and behave just the way they want to and expect me to still be sweet and nice!Hmph!!! Im sorry....Yes Im nice....but I dont take nonsense! If you treat me like your property to disown and regain at will, I will simply delink myself emotionally. I stand to lose nothing...But you will lose the person that I was to you.