Thinking...

Considering the way things have been for the past week-I mean-the entire gamut of clashing deadlines, exams etc, I dont have the enrgy to do anything right now.

Sometimes I really think-is the ladder Im climbing up the wrong wall?...working so much to yield nothing?

Look for instance what happened yesterday. I was supposed to do an assignment with my classmate. Now, because of another clashing more critical deadline a day later I was unable to contribute anything---anything at all towards the completion of the assignment, except aggressive non interference. My class mate incidentally happens to be a super fast brain--with due respect to him, I of course would not have been able to match up to his level of thinking in that short span of time. Even if I did , I would only spoil his speed and efficiency in completing the assignment(because for one, I take time to understand things...and two....nobody has time under those conditions to explain and clarify things). Worse, I will also get some credit(i.e. marks) for just being a spectator in the wings while he executed his task with speed and precision. I certainly dont deserve it.

This entire episode made me realise Im better off working alone than in a team. At least I dont have to be guilty for anyone but myself. At least I will know a 101 ways of not doing a thing...and become that much wiser.

I just hope we all have individual assignments...even though I struggle and get frustrated, at least I will only ask the help of such talented people as my classmate, not depend entirely (involuntarily though in this case, due to time pressure) on them.

At the end of this , I would of course want to apologise for such irrseponsible behavior, to the party concerned.