Where is the elation?
It is used to be so characteristic of me to scream for joy whenever I conquered something I wanted. Today I am standing at a point where I have achieved what I always wanted...a beginning towards a career in research. But somehow that magical feeling of having tasted success after strife has ceased to find expression in any form. What I would love to do is to jump up and down and hug somebody tight and scream out loud! But....it just hasnt happened.....fear of the evil eye possibly??
But why ...it aches my heart to not share this with somebody.... but then Im unable to.
I always loved being alone.
But now Im lonely....
I miss him... I want to talk to him
I had read somewhere..."Great love and great achievement involve great risk"
I am ready to resgn myself to fate
The last post was just the way I would have loved things to be...but well.... there are practical issues that cruelly ground your dreams.
Is it at all meant to be....I just want to be left alone....I want to be L.... no ....cant say it
posted by VKu @ 1:18 AM
3 Comments:
u know , u r as happy as u think u are....sounds paradoxical, but its true....So buckle up, kiddo, as u r beginning to live ur dreams.....not many can do that, so be proud of that....
hehe....u know wat..I feel so free right now...because success and the failure are transitory...they are just results that we have attributed names of "success" and "failure" to. I am just the instrument. I have stopped associating myself with anything ...the Self is wat matters really...n thats wat I want to reach
No, not u too!!! Ppl all round me have begun to change so much, i thought at least i can count on u to remain ur true-blue-mercurial self!! Dont let the world change u....thats one thing i've learned so far.....because the reasonable man tries to adapt himself to the world, but the unreasonable man tries to adapt the world to himself.....ergo, all progress depends on the unreasonable man!! So, dont u cross over to the "reasonable" side......i'll be left pretty much alone on the side of the irrationals!!!!
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